In Egyptian numerology, our Hearts Desire is the numeric calculation of the vowels of our birth certificate name. The vowels in the name are considered fluid and soft, describing the deepest passions and motivators of our heart. They hold our true vision of what we came here to do in this lifetime.
This is where we Hold what is near and dear to our heart. It is the frequency of our heart vibration & what motivates our passion, purpose, beliefs & points to authenticity. It is inspired and ignited by an Awakening. Until then, it directs our experiences toward maturation teaching us who we are and why we are here.
Because this vibration is linked to our hearts, we can only access it when our hearts are open. Anything blocking us from the flow of feelings will cause us to formulate our experiences through our minds leading to imbalance because it does not allow the heart energy body to mature. This is why an “Awakening” can be painful. The walls around our hearts need to come down.. whether by a feather or Sledgehammer. Keeping our hearts open is the journey after we open our eyes.
The awakening process is a rather personal journey. Everyone who experiences their own awakening usually arrives at the same destiny and that is with eyes wide open.
A Spiritual Awakening can manifest from several post experiences including a devastating loss, trauma, illness, and painful circumstances that have us trudging out of a period called the dark night of the soul.
Spiritual Awakening is a moment of transcendence and, with awareness, this moment can stretch out, touching all areas of our lives. Awakening spiritually changes the way we move through the world, and allows an inner sense of peace and stillness to govern our actions and reactions. The Awakening can be a gradual process, or it can also happen as if struck by lightning whereby one single event unlocks a flood of insights which changes a person’s perception of reality completely. There is no set definition as to how an awakening should happen, everybody experiences it in his or her own unique way.
It is not a one-time event, just like waking up in physical life, awakening is something we do every day. Spiritual awakening is an ongoing and ever unfolding process. It is walking along our divinely guided path towards fully remembering ourselves as conscious and ethical beings whereby we begin the journey of turning away from layers of illusion present in the physical world, and choose to become aware of who we really are, and what we know is really true.
Not all awakenings come from suffering and pain, we can also experience an awakening through deep meditative states of awareness and often times through prayer and contemplation. But those of us who graduate into a higher state of consciousness through pain and suffering need to find peace with our devastating loss. We simply cannot keep our eyes open without healing the past circumstances or we risk being pulled back into slumber while holding tightly onto our regressions.
For me, it was the trauma of being sexually assaulted as a young teen that threw me on my knees to a spiritual awakening, but post trauma found me still holding onto the feelings of betrayal, rejection, and abandonment. I also had a deep seeded feeling of shame that I carried around with me and although this feeling kept me searching for spiritual solutions, it was not until I faced my demons, healed my fear, and opened my heart that I was able to move on to become a sovereign , authentic, self- loving entity.
This process did not happen overnight. It occurred after continuing to make a Series of bad mistakes, poor judgment, and harmful experiences. I just could not understand how my spiritual knowledge and wisdom were expanding but my personal life was in shambles. What I knew and who I was, or my intentions and my actions were out of proportion with who I knew I was and what was driving the vehicle was unresolved emotional baggage that had not been resolved.